Contradiction

Some times,some sorrow will attack me as unusual regulary.And also,it was offten recently.Although I know the reason is unique,there's no way to break away from it.Mybe the wish was well,but,the real was not as wish.As I want to learn more,the real world force me not to do anything.Many time I want to learn some thing in concentration,the people or affairs will come to your front.You will let me far away from it.I think it's impossible.It's my work.
For example,many people in search of some help for oneself.It's right in theory,but if more and not many.You will think it's right,I don't think so.In real world,I can't offend them,though I don't recognize them.